The Goodbye I Never Got to Say

I never got to say goodbye

or that I'm sorry for the way I treated you.

I didn't realize how much

I could have hurt you.

I've made so many mistakes

but not telling you how I feel

is number one.

You see, at the time,

I wasn't quite me.

But there's no need to justify

because I don't deserve your forgiveness.

I deserve your hate

and malice.

But I wanted your love.

You sheltered me from the storm going on outside

and I pushed you out into it.

I was hurt and didn't how to love.

I would have ripped out my heart and hand it to you.

A part of me still would.